Friendship #trust

I'm in a state of mind where i don't even want to talk to anyone , Depression always visits me in the wrong timing as usual...

I've decided not to trust people that easy anymore. It really hurts so much , when you recover from pain , crawling to trust someone new , hoping they won't do anything to you but then it all just fall into small pieces of faith.

What happen to day was really horrible, i trusted someone so much that i thought i could tell that person everything and anything ... but then no , i guess humans will always be humans , there's nothing much i can say about it .

Always be careful who you trust with anything , they seem nice in front of you , but you don't know what's going on behind your back.

People will smile at you but lots of knives stabbing you behind that smile.

I thought that being honest was a good thing?
Why does it seems like people who are honest are always the wrong ones?
and the liars are always the one end up being right?

Why doesn't people trust me? I've always been saving people's ass but yet , why am i the one whose always getting hurt?

I don't share my feelings anymore , it's not that i don't want to , it's just too scary how judgemental humans are.

Sometimes i really do ask myself , what did i do to make it this way?

League of Legends : Jinx's Fish Bone ! ( The Making )

FYI : This was a last minute project for me , i made it 2 days before the event was held. It took me 2 nights to finish this Fish Bone with a budget of only less than $10 :) 

FISH BONE

I didn't get to take pictures of the whole progress but i do have some pictures that i took while i was making it halfway 

This was my reference pic , i tried my best to follow the fish bone from here . With the help of le bf of course! haha

Materials used :

• 3 plastic big bottles 
• Lots of cardboard boxes
• Hot Glue gun 
• Marker pens ( A MUST! XD )
• Tape ( the paper type ones like scotch tapes not the transparent plastics one ) 
• Silver Paint
• *Black Paint as well for the details ( but i skipped this )

First , what i did was to connect the 3 plastic bottles with scotch tapes , but of course i chopped off the top part of the bottle first before connecting them together. I then made the details of the fish bone from cardboard , i made the details from top till the end , Le Bf did the shark's head details and the tails and fins .

 I reused one of the chopped off part from the plastic bottles and attached it to the end for the base of the tail fins. This is how it looks like when checking if the details were right or not.

This is how it looks like when i attached all the other parts together . 

** the silver and red blade like you see on the left is Shin's blades for her Akali cosplay xD i was making this prop in her house while she was repairing her blades xD **

I made the shark's eyes by drawing it on a normal paper then tracing it to some black type of plastic-paper i found around my house then just layered it like 4 times to make it stiff . For the eye details ( red, orange and yellow details ) , i actually used strings and one yellow bead in the middle , i was actually too lazy to colour the details using paint or colour pencils LOL. so i did this ! Creative mann xD

BULLET BELT & OTHER DETAILS 

It doesn't look that nice or real but this was the closest i could make similar to a bullet belt ! I couldnt find any plastic ones in Brunei , apparently it's banned even if it was fake ! 

Materials :

• Hanging clips ( i know its hard to believe but yeah , i literally used these ones ! )

 

• Belt
• Gold paint
• Paper
• Hot Glue Gun

What i did was to hot glued them together to this position then covered them with a paper strip so it doesn't look that bumpy and i also hot glued the remaining holes so it wasn't that noticeable after spray painting.

 Waiting for le paint to dry :DD

Apparently , i did not have ANY black belts at all and it was in the middle of the night , so i decided to make my own! I used my old Black Rock Shooter white belt as base and an old sport pants for the cover!

WAAALAAA! Final results! hahaha! not bad eh xD

Put the parts together with some super glue and a little modifying here and there , so this is how it will look like !!¬¬¬¬¬¬¬

It really doesn't look that bad right? xD LAST MINUTE IDEAS ! SUCH A RUSH ! HAHAHA!

Anyway that's all for now! xD wanna see my Jinx Cosplay pictures? You can see it at the left bar of this blog :) 

Sleep deprivation?!?!?!?!?

Yay to my first blog post!

I'm so freaking tired to the max today . Haven't slept in like 30 hours? and still counting? I'll probably K.O around 9pm later!!!! =______=''

All night last night , i was on YouTube while Raymond was just like playing with his new game on his Galaxy Note 10.1 called ' Arcane  Legend ' . It's basically a game that ALMOST has the same game plan like ' Talisman Online ' but for tablets and phones to play. He didn't slept until like 6am this morning xD

While me on the other hand , just YouTube-ing , watching ' Xiaxue's Guide to Life ' and ' Budget Barbie ' . It really makes me feel like i wanna go to Singapore.

After Raymond knocked out , i had to like wait till like 7am till Wengson came to pick me to go to Limbang ~ But then he like came around 8am so I'm like " meeeeeeeeeeeehhhhhhhhhh! i still got energy " . So i got in the car and went off to Limbang with Weng .

We had Sugar Bun for lunch which was like beef burger? cheese wedges? chicken and drinks? Never ate Sugar Bun at Limbang before so yeah . After that , we went around the Limbang Plaza , just looking around for stuffs to buy and i spotted this like machine where you have to insert a coin then twist it to let out an EGG which the egg has some suprises in it :3 the poster was like about this cute keychain thingy that is a small tiny glass bottle :3 and i love glass bottles and wishing bottles

HERE'S HOW IT LOOKS LIKE!

HONTON NI KAWAII DESU !!!! :33333 i spent like only RM2? for like 10 eggs? cause each twist is just like RM0.20 .But sadly i only pot lucked 4 glass bottles out of 10 :( fucking cheating little machine !!

Then blah blah blah ~~~ BACK TO BRUNEI ! YAY ~

Went to Serasa Beach to pay the fees to join the Poni Divers Water Promotion :D me and my group of friends are gonna play in the afternoon of December 8 which is me and Ray's monthsary . PERFECT TIMING <3

While i was smoking outside of the car , i noticed the sun  like pointing at me so freaking brightly so I'm like ' Sun do you want a selfie? ' and LOL i gave it a selfie and here it is . I wished it was a sunset so it would be a nice view :<

GOT BORED SO WHY NOT SELFIE?

OMG OMG OMG I FORGOT TO MENTION!  See the necklace I'm wearing in the picture? Bought it at Limbang for like a really cheap price xD Well i know it's fake and it's gonna change colour but who cares , it's not supposed to last long with me anyway huehuehuehuehue There's actually a funny story behind this necklace : Wengson was like busy buying his new vape and i was like wandering around the shop then i spotted these like cute wording necklaces ! There was words like ' Blessed ' , ' Dearest ' , ' Angel ' , ' Princess ' and ' Sexy Girl '

I was like choosing to either get Princess or Sexy Girl so like i asked Wengson which one suits me and he said Sexy Girl and i was like seriously ? so i took it anyway ~~~ BUT WHEN WE GOT IN THE CAR , he was like ' i think it's the wrong necklace 'cause llike you're so fat ' and i was like (-_____________________________-)""""


HERE'S A CLOSE UP!

RM7.90?! CHEAP RIGHT ! HAHAHAHA~~ Alright , I'm gonna have dinner and i just wanna K.O on my comfy comfy soft bed <3

BUUUUUAAAII!!!!